Sometimes the timehop option on facebook just isn’t a good thing is it!? I see stuff and I want to hide my head in shame that I ever posted it then other times they make me feel quite sad.
Today something came up about me leaving a job 9 years ago and I was sad to be leaving. The only reason I would have been sad is the riends I had made there. Well the reason this has got to me today is because I am still at the same job that I left that one for, but I don’t have any of those friendships where I work now. I am very much on the outside at work, yeah they talk to me at work, we get on, have a laugh etc but never more than that. I feel quite sad that I don’t have work friends like I used to. The other 3 places I’ve worked, I have always had people as friends away from work. I even keep in touch with a lot of them, yes it may just be a like, comment or a quick message on facebook but I feel with the ones I work with now, once we don’t work together anymore, that will be it. Everyone else at work meet each other out of work, they’re all friends out of work and me, well I don’t fit into their friendship groups. Adult life can suck at times!!
So I know on social media sites you see all the great things about peoples lives, never the bad, I get that. Even though I know that, it doesn’t make it any easier sometimes. I was on there earlier and my cousin had posted some photos of a day out with her family and friends, I felt a little pang of jealousy. I don’t have friends that I meet up with, she’s grown up with the friends in the photos, they all know each other (including husbands) and I just love how close and happy they look. I don’t have friends I went to school with as we moved after I finished school, I have changed jobs a couple of times since working and although I stay in touch with some, most never became friends out of work. The ‘friends’ I had when I used to go out drinking with my ex, well they were ‘friends’ at the time of me going out to the pub, but as soon as I had a child that stopped as that’s the only place they go. So now I’m almost 37 and don’t have any friends that I can meet up with. It doesn’t help that I suffer with anxiety and most of that is to do with my ex and as I get older, it seems to get worse so I find it even harder to make friends. I mean, where do you go to find friends as an adult. I work full time, but term time only but the clubs aren’t on in the holidays.
stopsmegoingmad 